Sunday, May 25, 2014

Chron Goblin - Bring Your Idols

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Upadesa Saram, Essence of Instruction

Now available on Kindle for the first time - M. Wright's translation with commentary of Ramana Maharshi's Upadesa Saram. This book discusses the various paths to enlightenment, jnana, bhakti, karma yogas, before showing that the best of all methods is atma vichara (Self-enquiry).

Thursday, May 31, 2012

To find out what's gnawing at me...

I took this walk to ease my mind
To find out what's gnawing at me
Wouldn't think to look at me,
that I've spent a lot of time in education
It all seems so long ago
I'm a thinker, not a talker
I've no-one to talk to, anyway 
I can't see the road
for the rain in my eyes
(David Bowie - Conversation Piece)

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Hashimoto's encephalopathy - Some Symptoms

Hashimoto's encephalopathy - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia:

The onset of symptoms tends to be fairly gradual and to occur over 1–7 days.

Some of the more common symptoms of Hashimoto's encephalopathy include:
personality changes
delusional behavior
concentration and memory problems
jerks in the muscles (myoclonus - 65% cases)
lack of coordination (ataxia - 65% cases)
partial paralysis on the right side
seizures (60% cases)
sleep abnormalities (55% cases)
speech problems (transient aphasia - 80% cases)
status epilepticus (20% cases)
tremors (80% cases)"

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Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Hashimoto's Encephalopathy and me

It has been almost a year since the diagnosis of Hashimoto's Encephalopathy (SREAT) was decided upon by the Neurologist. A rare disease, it often goes undiagnosed. Fortunately, not here. To begin with CJD and Alzheimers were considered to be the culprits. The initial craziness which lasted about three weeks involved extreme paranoia followed by 'me' disappearing altogether for a while before gradually re-entering into a mad world of hallucination which completely covered and occluded that world which most people accept as a place of normality. 'Me'... I regularly held court with a flock of budgies while oblivious to anyone or anything else.

It has been a weird year.

This new year brought a relapse which has necessitated the doubling of medication dose and the addition of an immunosuppressant.

Lack of concentration interferes with much of what used to be normal in my life. Although my ability to read has come back to a great extent, it has been hard work. However watching films [and TV] remains a bit iffy. In fact, I can take or leave them. I guess the biggest disappointment is my inability to do formal translations from Sanskrit. Sanskrit has been a passion for most of my life and I suppose continues to be so but now I merely read rather than make formal translations with commentary. This may return. My painting has also suffered. This is partly due to lack of focussed concentration but also to a loss of motor skills. My hands invariably shake as soon as any demands are put upon them. While the headaches have reduced they have by no means disappeared - unlike words. I sometimes have to scrabble for words, especially when tired, which tends to happen anytime after midday depending on sleep pattern. Yet another casualty of this insidious disease.

With hindsight it seems clear that the problems started sometime in 2010 - unsteadiness, falls, tiredness, headaches, weight loss, disorientation etc. But there was no way to know. as a Psoriatic Arthritis sufferer I merely put such things down to an inflammation flare up.

Who knows what this year will bring! I have started a painting blog - in an effort to encourage 'me' to get on and paint a bit (painting being one of the things which has dropped away from me). And also a Sanskrit blog - in the hope that it might encourage 'me' to continue with my Sanskrit/Linguistic interests. The latter is proving to be the hardest to get excited about. Strange it having been a life long obsession.

Headache is on the rise so I shall sign off for now.

Monday, January 9, 2012

Tower of Babel

The Tower of Babel gets a bad press. A misunderstanding surely. ;)

According to the Oxford Dictionary of English, Babel comes from Hebrew Bāel 'Babylon', which is from Akkadian bāb ili 'gate of God'.

cf. Bhartrhari's statement in the Vakyapadiya, "tad dvāramapavargasya" [Grammar] is the door to liberation.

Just coming at it from another angle.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

The Gita on trial - Times Of India

The Gita on trial - Times Of India: "Swami Bhakti Vigyan, head of the Russian chapter of the ISKCON spoke to Mona Mehta on the day a Russian court rejected the plea to ban the Gita.

What is your reaction to the Tomsk court's dismissal of the plea for a ban on the Gita? We're grateful for all support of the Indian people and government in this regard. As the Gita says, if you stand for truth, truth will protect you. "Dharmo rakshita rakshatah", meaning if you protect your religion or dharma, your dharma will protect you."

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